Let it be known…

I’m afraid my FB stats have misled a “few” people. Have you ever made some choices in the past, where you pick one over the other, and then find out in the end that you should’ve gone for the other one? That’s me. And it burns so bad to realize that I would’ve been 10 steps closer to where I wanted to be if I chose one over the other. It was never about the money, or boredom, that brought me down. It was finding out that I put the wrong people, and the wrong things, my utmost priority. And that now, after letting go, I am made to feel almost worthless. I’ve been put to all this trouble, making me put this year’s plans on hold, and I don’t even get a single acknowledgement that they do care. I was supposed to start a new business, setup my own PC, and have this new and better life. Thanks to having my resources put on hold, I have to put the business on hold, and work around my lack of resources. Is that it? After all that, I don’t even get so much as a “sorry”?! I’ve been told by a LOT of people that I could sue. But is that really where you’d want things to go?

My dad once told me of this seminar he went to where they were told about priorities. Always put GOD first, and you in second place. Always have your family and friends above your day job. Because in the end, your job can’t take care of you, but your family can.

Let it be known, that nothing gets me down better than people. Choosing the wrong people, trusting the wrong people, or being betrayed. I demand to be treated with respect, and be given honesty. I don’t care too much about being liked. But I do care that I’m told the truth. I hate being lied to, and I hate being given empty promises. I’ve been given reason to believe that either I put the wrong people (and their stuff) first. In fact, I shouldn’t have put them first to begin with.

I’m not posting this all emo and upset. I’ve given it some thought, and I figured we’d all get what we deserve. Maybe not today, or tomorrow, but certainly come judgement day. I’ve learned so much in this experience, and my ‘people radar’ certainly got an upgrade. I now know the kind of people that’ll do me more harm than good, and vice versa. I say this without anger or hate, but I think the best way around this is to burn the bridge. Move on, lose touch, and have nothing to do with each other ever again.

I’ve realized my worth, and I know I can do so much more. Maybe I let my dreams take a break, but not anymore. I’m getting back on track. The past few days have made me feel horrible, but when I decided to get up and do something, good things did happen. This time I know I made the right decision. And that things will get so much better now.

Right. So I’ve been sort of neglecting my blogging duties since I’ve been hunting for days. The hunt is officially over. I mean, the job hunt is officially over. Got a couple of calls yesterday. Nothing beats the high of hearing “you’re hired”. Okay, maybe something could beat that, but it still feels soooooo goood! Working on my Contra entry nao.